Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Praying for God to give me patience, and what I am getting


People always say not to pray for patience because God will do drastic things in order to make you patient.  I always hated that people would specifically tell me not to pray for something.  So, I prayed for patience about a month ago....  I told my husband and bible study that I wasn't afraid of what God had in store for me.  

Today I am getting the first clearly defined "test" from God to go through and learn patience.  I discovered today that after 2 years of doing a TON of GE to get certified in it for the CSU system through palomar and to have for my AA's that I wasn't doing the right stuff.  All 5 or 6 counselling appointments that I have had with 3-4 different counsellors failed to tell me that Palomar has their own sheet of GE that you must complete in order to obtain an AA degree through the school.  Well, I thought I just needed the CSU GE sheet completed (which is way more involved and a lot more units).  Nope.  Come to find out I am missing AT LEAST 2 classes for the Palomar sheet, possibly 3 if they don't allow crossover units from one side of the sheet to the other.

I was devastated when I first found out.  This is going to make my college career another semester long....  Another 6 months of school before I can say that I have my AA's.  I almost lost in in class bawling.  I cried in the car on the way home.  I was mad...threw the college catalog at the wall a few times even.  

At dinner tonight my husband said something though, and it helped me.  He kept saying to be patient and that I should just take the things as they come.  Right then I realized that this was a test for me to be patient and to learn to be more positive.  I immediately changed my reactions and am trying to stay happy about the whole thing.  I am going to take 3 classes in an extra semester to complete my last two GE courses, as well as the final undergrad course necessary to transfer to SDSU's Child Development major someday.  I am going to learn more things I never would have otherwise.  I am going to get to have a non-full semester with classes that are easier and more for leisure (they are NOT hard classes).  I am going to be more patient and have to wait longer to start a family.  All these things are good, but coming about in a previously negative situation.

I am continuing to pray for patience, and thanking God for blessing me with this test.

~Heather Head